she keeps on passing me by

her voice drives me crazy. i love it.

i am starting to learn how to deal with my problems rather than accepting them as immutable flaws. i am still not very good at talking about them, and sometimes that makes me feel like i'm goin' nuts. but i'm not actually goin' nuts. so that's good.

i'm grateful for good friends visiting from out of town. seth & dave & mariah, i love you all and hope i see you all again soon. joey, i am so happy for you, you're one of the sweetest guys i know and you're gonna be an amazing husband. luke & mikhail, i wish i could've spent more time with you, you guys are awesome. i don't think any of you know about this blog, haha.

it's been really good for me to get out of the house and go to shows, and i'm thankful for a community that wants to include me even though i can't dance too good and i'm afraid of everything.

i don't like macho handshakes because i don't like macho anything.